I Want Some Answers!

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Today, I want answers. I want answers to the following questions regarding things that happened to me:

1. When my ADT home alarm system is faulted, and I can’t fix it myself over the phone with them, why must I pay for the labor costs for a technician to come out to repair it? I mean, it’s by no fault of mine that it doesn’t work, so why do I have to assume the costs to fix it? Makes no sense.

2. Why are there very few remote job opportunities now when people are actually mostly only working remotely? I have been perusing Indeed, Glass Door, Linked In, etc., and the remote work opportunities are few and far between. Oh, and I’m like candidate 154, if there is one.

3. How many times can I explain that I don’t get unemployment, because I quit, and I don’t qualify for pandemic assistance? Just curious. I get tired of explaining, as if I didn’t look into those options myself.

4. Ew, why am I so belligerent right now? Ha!

5. The song my son keeps singing, which he has titled “Poop Under the Covers,” and really only has those four words repeatedly…does it mean something? Is there some hidden meaning, or just hidden poop under his covers?

6. Can we really not wear white in a week? I mean, who even made that up? I didn’t wear enough white this summer, and if we are just home and not going into work or school, who cares if we sneak in some white sweatpants?

7. Are Dunkin’ Coolatas made with real strawberries and fruit? If so, are the blue raspberry Coolatas then made from actual fluorescent blue raspberries? If these exist on some farm, I must see and pick for myself.

8. Is mail-in voting going to work? I sent in a ballot via mail. Did you?

9. When my daughter tells me she is exhausted because she had TWO play dates (insert screams)…do I feel bad? Um….

10. Why is only Season 3 of Siesta Key free, and the episodes before it are $17.99 if you want to catch up??

11.  My children don’t actually go back to the school till October in Massachusetts. Is this actually going to happen? And I can’t believe it’s September, and I have a whole other month of summer left home with them! How am I supposed to even get a job? Oh, and when they go back, it’s scattered half days: half-remote, half in-person. So, essentially, I have two young children, varying times of learning and drop offs and pick ups, but I’m supposed to also work. Go figure.

12. When I ask my son to help clear the dinner table, and he tells me, “It’s not 1982!” What does that even mean? Oh, PS-he was born in 2010. And, I mean, I guess, yes, in 1982, I was indeed helping my parents clear the table!

 

 

When Enough is Enough

When is enough actually enough? I was walking down Main Street yesterday and saw one of those personalized, wooden, oblong signs that hangs from nautical rope that read: Whatever You Accomplished Today Is Enough.

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It struck me, because I had just been thinking that I had not done nearly enough to consider myself productive, and the hours in the day had slipped away. Evening was encroaching, and I had not written one word for my book, and I had yet to buy any gifts for my son’s birthday, which is tomorrow. I also hadn’t gone for a run, and my refrigerator was bare. My health insurance issues weren’t resolved, and I forgot to buy a new sprinkler.

So what the hell had I been doing? 

Well, I got up with my kids, and I played a round of Barbies with one and Adopt Me on Roblox with another. I also walked the dogs, cleaned the house, and made lunch. That was all before 1:00 p.m.

So was that enough? I mean, I guess it was?

I also often wonder AM I ENOUGH?

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Well, there’s the argument that I am sometimes too much, but that’s a whole different topic. When I consider if I am enough, I am more asking myself the question if I could be more intelligent, prettier, in better shape, wealthier, more successful, more accomplished, etc. Blah, blah, the list goes on…

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It seems very counterproductive to wonder these things, and I think, yes, I am enough most of the time. But sometimes those doubts creep back in, and that’s when it’s good to have another one of those wooden, oblong signs around to read: You are Enough.

It’s funny how no matter how much you have, the human condition makes us want more. It’s oddly greedy and unkind. It’s important to be kind to yourself, as well as to others. One of the best pieces advice I got once was to stop beating myself up. And sometimes that means not getting a whole lot done. Give yourself a break. Whatever you accomplished today was Enough.